The floodgates have apparently opened, and it’s beginning to feel like there’s no going back. At least I hope not. I’ve been posting for a while now about the experience I’ve been having lately with the Universe working overtime to get my attention and persuade me (demand?) that it’s time to start believing that I am worthy of love just the way I am. Well, the messages keep showing up. It’s a bit like the chapter early in the first Harry Potter book where the owls start delivering the Hogwarts acceptance letter to Harry, and they won’t stop until the message is actually received. For me, in these past few weeks, the messages have become an almost daily occurrence. As I said, the floodgates have opened. And, as it turns out, I am starting to believe it. But then today I had a new awareness. The more I open up to receive the remarkable gift of this powerful new (old) reality, the more my very sense of self is being transformed. How I see myself, how I experience my life, who I understand myself to be, is being rewritten. My first inclination is to say that I am becoming someone new, but that isn’t actually true. The truth is that I’m becoming who I’ve always been, but am only now starting to really see (and feel) the fullness of that reality. I suspect that the Universe will continue the onslaught of messages, at least for the foreseeable future, because old, deep patterns don’t usually dissolve overnight. But they most certainly are dissolving. I can feel them falling away, and it is an odd experience. It’s like I’m putting on a new set of clothes, and I’m not yet used to how they fit. But I’m really beginning to believe that they are, indeed, my clothes. One step, one breathe, one moment at a time, I will continue to live into the life I was created to live, to become the person I was created to be. Gratitude abounds. Thank you to my friends and family who have seen me and reflected it back to me so that I could begin to see myself. And thank you to the Universe (by whatever name (or absence of name) you might care to call it) for overwhelming me with this profoundly powerful message of love and transformation. It took me a long time to get here, but I am most grateful to be right here, right now. It is where I belong.
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